from a (new) mom's heart, on mother's day

last year, mother's day, was when i first stared at those pink lines.

a year after, i am staring into my son's eyes, and i feel the love and gratitude overflow in my heart.

jecobie will forever be the little boy who stole my heart with his little hands, little feet, little fingers, little toes, little nose, little chubby cheeks, little smizing eyes, little everything. he could grow big and tall and strong, grow up bigger than his dad.. but in my heart, he will always be the little pistoy who loves staring at trees, who loves chewing on his caterpillar toy, who smiles the sweetest smile every morning when i greet him "good morning, handsome!".

i love you pistoy. i will be here for you until i breathe my last breath, and later.

5 month mark

pistoy reached his 5-month-mark last week pa. i've been updating my fb account with vids of him, as requested by lola-mama ayet. marami nang kalokohan itong anak ko!

mama
recently, tinuturuan namin syang magsabi ng "mama", "dada", at "dede". so far, may mga incidences na nasasabi nya yung "mama". often pag umiiyak at may gusto. awwwww. =) i know hindi pa nya talaga meant na sabihin yon, but it still melts my heart. hehe!

kiss and embrace
lately rin, bumabalik na yung pag-kiss-kiss nya. as usual, nakanganga pa rin. hahaha! but it's a start, di nya na ulet iniiwas yung mukha nya. pag ayaw nyang mag-kiss, kami muna nagki-kiss. then after that, ki-kiss na rin sya. gusto sya ang unang sinusuyo! hehe! tinuturuan siya ni je mag-embrace. so far, kailangan mo pang i-guide yung arms nya.

first real food
last weekend, we tried to give him real/prepared food: boiled and mashed potatoes. ayaw nya! nung una, gutom na siguro masyado kaya he wants food fast. second, di ko alam bakit ayaw nya. pero kahapon, he ate it! dinagdagan ko ng breastmilk, siguro mas thick yung first 2 tries kaya di nya nagustuhan.i hope i didn't mess up his appetite for non-sweet food dahil pinatikim ko sya ng ice cream dati.

shudder
naulit yung shudder nya, but this time left arm lang. same scenario, kumakain and ready to doze off. nakita ni je, and ivi-video sana namin kaya lang natapos na. so that is definitely the first on our list pagbisita sa pedia in 2 weeks.

tummy time
i dunno what's with pistoy, pero ayaw na nya ng tummy time. he'd rather stay on his back and play kesa dumapa. i'm kinda starting to worry this will be a problem pag gusto na nyang mag-explore. at pano sya mag-co-crawl, pano sya tatayo mag-isa? i might be worrying too early, but i just want to take note of it too. at ayaw nya rin umupo, aside from the bumbo seat. uupo sya sandali, tapos iiyak, tapos he will arch his back and kick, para bumaligtad. i might have his pedia check kung may strain ba sa hip bones nya, or sa butt, or sa likod, kung bakit ayaw nyang umupo. he loves standing up though. pag tinatayo namin sya, diretsong-diretso ang legs nya. tumatagal na rin sya sa jumperoo, and i think he's actually enjoying it. =P ano ka ba anak, gusto mo bang maging security guard, laging nakatayo? =P

strangers(?)
naninibago pa rin sya sa mga in-laws ko, pero at least nakikipag-usap na minsan. ayaw nya lang ng malakas na boses. kaya yung mga bro ni je na mahinahon magsalita, dun sya sumasama at tumatawa. hehe!

nakakabaliw itong si pistoy! just the daily interaction with him, parang laging may bago syang gagawin. he would either say or do something na parang "hirit" at a perfect timing, natatawa na lang kami ni je eh. =)

joys of mommahood. =)

infant shudder syndrome

i had a scare yesterday afternoon when pistoy started shaking while he's feeding.

dumedede sya and he's almost ready to doze off, when i noticed him shaking/shivering. hinawakan ko naman yung kamay at paa nya, mainit naman. hinawakan ko yung leeg at ulo nya to check his temp, normal naman din sa touch. hindi naman sya violent shake, and he didn't seem bothered by it, but it's disturbing to see.

i thought if hindi titigil in a minute, i'll drive him to the ER na. pero it stopped on its own after a few seconds. i checked his temp, 36 C, normal naman. i told je about it last night. i wasn't very worried after it happened kasi pistoy seemed fine, as if it didn't happen. but when je mentioned neurological issues, nagworry ako why i didn't do anything even after it stopped.
 
nagtingin-tingin ako sa internet, and found this on YT. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5erLHDX1h8
this is exactly how pistoy looked like. apparently, it's called the infant shudder syndrome.


i may sound like a bad mom, but i want to wait and see muna, before we run to the doctors. i don't want to put pistoy through unnecessary tests, kung wala namang treatment necessary. i just know the culture of fear ng doctors dito eh. they would rather have you tested for every single little thing, kesa may madiagnose sayo later and they get sued.


so pistoy is under observation right now. i'll mention it to his pedia na rin, just to be sure.