the anxiety sets in

between finding out i'm pregnant through 2 home pregnancy kits, and having my first appointment with the doctor a couple of days later, the anxiety was just overwhelming.

i try not to worry, but i started counting kung nakailang bote ng san mig light ako nung nasa bakasyon kami sa pinas. ilan nga ba? ilang shots ng tequila rose, bailey's, jagermeister, jack daniel's, tequila at vodka? nag-mix-shots pa kami sa gerardo's nung bday celebration ni je at rommel. plus, yung mga starbucks coffee at softdrinks. then nagpapractice pa kami ng sayaw for rommel and tenten's wedding, patalon-talon pa naman yung steps!

tapos last week lang, uminom pa ko ng wine at beer dun sa team building event namin!

i'm sorry, i didn't know!

aside from that, i kept overcompensating for everything i am doing. i walk slower, i don't bend down on my back. i eat a lot. the anxiety is just too much. what if it's a false positive test, twice?

and then wednesday came and we found ourselves sitting at the doc's office, undecided if we will sign the binding arbitration agreement. it took us more than an hour trying to contact people who are familiar with it. i called patsy, but they don't have that in Ohio. je called his mom, but she's not familiar with it either. our doc's appointment eventually "expired", they have to reschedule us the next day, or next week.

so that night, malou, a long time friend, along with emma, her friend, who are well versed with these law stuff, called and shed some light into our doubts about that agreement. malou's still clueless about the reason why i was at the doc's office. hehe!

so the next day, we were sitting at the doc's office again, and this time, i'm ready to sign.

and, i'm ready to find out if i am really pregnant. *grins*